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okay i know everyone wishes they could send there husbands off some where for a week so they could catch a break and so did I but I am done and want mine back! LOL! Lately I have just been sick with out him to the point where it physically hurts inside, and makes you crawl into a ball just to hold your self together. I miss him making me laugh, and seeing his cute smiling face, and they way his skin smells after taking a shower, and the comfort of his hug when Im having a bad mommy day. (which is usually quite offen :) ) So it is very much needed. While he has been gone I have realised how much I love and appreciate all that he does. Plain and simple, I know I dont deserve him. And every day i sit and think why me? why would someone so perfect pick me? I dont have any special qualities I dont have one of those amazing features like "oh she has the prettiest eyes or she has the best butt or prettiest smile. so why me? I will never understand but am so greatfull he picked me. I know times are hard on everyone right now with the stress of money and jobs,and that can have a huge effect on a marriage. But I just have to sit back and look at everything I do have. I have 2 beautiful fun crazy girls that can make me laugh and cry at the same time. I have a husband who i am so in lov with! And that would do and is doing everything he possibly can right now just to make our lives a little easier. And I am sooo greatfull for the sacrifices he is making right now, because I know it would not be easy. I am so greatfull for our families who do so much for us and especailly right now while he is away. His dad for one, who comes and mowes my lawn and trims it every monday, because there is NO way I could do it half that good. I would probably have a field around my house if it wasnt for him =) His mom for always feeding us because colt was the one that did all the cooking so without her it would be macaroni and cheese and pb and jelly or chili and corn. oh but I can make a mean scrambled eggs and french toast=) And of coarse my momma and sister! my two best friends in the whole world! that do so much for me and the girls! lets just say I owe my mom big time! She is so sweet and always there whenever I need her for anything. and shelby for always making me laugh to the point of peeing my pants no matter what kind of mood i was in. The list could go on and on! But I love you honey! and thanks for all u do! I miss you more than words can say! xoxo